Casual Sex = Formal Test

Just something I thought of tonight on my way home from feeding Beth's cats. Must've been prompted by something....I wonder what.

Maybe it was the hand-addressed letter in a security envelope sitting in her mailbox from Blue Skies Center for Women. Huh. Now, why would she be going there?

Anyway, if I could only live my life as my life, and not be so damned affected by so many other people. I think I might actually prosper in this world. There's hope, right? It's not that I still care for her even remotely like I used to. I just know she was very special to me and it sucks to see her tossing her life away just because she is lost. Oh well. Off to grill up some steaks and eat some dinner. It's been a hard day working on the new XJ. Oooh...lemme post a pic from the other day. Hang on....

Here's "Pepper" as I got her frmo the dealer. Note the somewhat snazzy rims and tiny little street tires.



Here she is with her first upgrade. 16" aluminum rims off of a Jeep Rubicon with 31" off-road tires.


Now I just have to plunk down the $$ for the lift kit that will allow me to flex those axles and not rub the hell out of the tires! And, I have 4 MUCH better tires that I just have to go get in Highlands Ranch sometime next weekend. OK. Really, I have to go cook. Nite!

-Rich

Holy crap, there are some beautiful women out there...

So I went looking for redheads on the net. Forgot I had a flickr account and whammo!




Damn...that's about all I can say. Can someone out there please tell one of these fine ladies that I am here? Hopefully, they are fairly local, too. Ummm, yeah. That's all. I gotta go get ready for a night on the town with a woman who I am sure would not appreciate the fact that I am scouting around for redheads online. Well...maybe that says something about her. Or me. I'm an ass. But I'm just looking. No real harm in thta! It's not like I will climb inside my computer and find this woman and make sweet love to her cyber-presence. On a side note, if anyone knows how I can, please let me know.

OK. Off I go. Nite, kids!

-Rich

Things are not what they seem.

Seems I owe someone a few beers.

In other news, the visit went well. I guess. Beth felt a little slighted because they folks were showing up. Oh well. But...

Tonight she came over again. She asked me yesterday if I had time, and conveniently slipped in a request. Could I watch her 2 cats while she was gone for 9 days, beginning this Saturday? I should have asked why Frank (the new man) couldn't do it. She devotes enough of her time to him that we can no longer be friends, but can't watch her cats? But instead, the sucker said yes.

Did I ever mention that while we were still dating (after a year or so) she suddenly decided we shouldn't have sex because she might get pregnant? Maybe I should have taken it as a sign.

So that's that. During her latest visit, she bought me Chinese food and brought over an early birthday cake from my favorite bakery. What a bitch. I was really and truly hoping she'd forget. But why? So I would have something to hold against her? Maybe. Was it so that I wouldn't have to deal with her being nice to me? Definitely. I don't like it anymore. I wish she would stop. I was actually beginning to be good with her not calling or being in my life. Weird. I should tell her this somehow.

She told me tonight that Frank is going to go away soon to train for Special Forces. He's a Ranger now. Like I am supposed to be thrilled or impressed? Sure, the guy fights for my rights. Good for him. I appreciate and respect everyone who does. It's not that I don't. But she says it like her dating him makes her a better person, you know? Like I should be proud of her for stumbling into him. Whatever. I bet when he leaves, I get more phone calls from her. I already like him less, just because that might happen. But I never knew him. Is this "less than zero" in my life right now? I like him less than nothing, but don't have any bad feelings towards him. Weird.

OK. I gotta go to bed, before I put both feet into my mouth and begin to cramp up. Nite.

-Rich

Times like this...

I wish upon no one. I am posessed by this drive to clean the house. Maybe to impress the ex? Maybe to show her I am doing better than when I dated her? I dunno.

"Once, if I remember well, my life was a feast where all hearts opened and all wines flowed."

Another 2 beers goes to the first to ID the author and poem. Please, no cheating. I know you can quote it and Google it. But isn't it more fun to gizoogle something?

Try it. http://www.gizoogle.com

Nite.

-Rich

Song in the background....

That's not really possible with me.

"Come in from the cold for a while.
Everything will be alright.
Come in from the noise for a time.
Everything will be alright.
Everything will be alright.
For now, goodbye.
Friend, goodbye."

Not sure if I feel that way, but I know I have. On both sides. But I cherish that song. What a tender one and a half minute jam. A free beer to anyone (of legal drinking age) that can tell me where it's from. It's a hard one. It's not even listed on the song list. It's one of those end-of-recording bonuses. Maybe 2 beers.

Part of me misses corporate America. Why the fuck is that? I guess I miss the empowerment that it can give you. Especially in a company that tried hard to make you believe you have a modicum of power. Weird. Sometimes these middle-sized companies just are not the right size. Almost enough work to warrant more people, but too many people for anything but the busiest of times. But we could be much busier at the drop of a hat. But we would need more people. Very strange. Penny lane. Perhaps I am settling into being responsible for something sizable again. This job of ours is a little over $1.2 million for us. And it's basically my ass on the line if it gets off track. And all the other trades on-site are depending on us and building their schedule around our completion. Huh. It feels good.

OK. I have to go drink beer and figure out how I get my personal life into such shit. The double-ex is coming over (the one I moved here with) in an hour or so. We haven't seen each other in over 2 months, because she has been too busy for me, now that she has a new lover. But suddenly, she has time? She called me Sat, Sun and Mon night. Hmm....it gets worse. The parents are also on their way in about an hour to revel in the glee of finalizing a deal to buy property and a home here in the state. Then they fly away tomorrow, back to the East Coast. So, off I go to dull the pain. I'm only smiling on the outside. Inside? Well, you never really wanted to be in my head, but now is REALLY not the right time.

-Rich