Song in the background....
That's not really possible with me.
"Come in from the cold for a while.
Everything will be alright.
Come in from the noise for a time.
Everything will be alright.
Everything will be alright.
For now, goodbye.
Friend, goodbye."
Not sure if I feel that way, but I know I have. On both sides. But I cherish that song. What a tender one and a half minute jam. A free beer to anyone (of legal drinking age) that can tell me where it's from. It's a hard one. It's not even listed on the song list. It's one of those end-of-recording bonuses. Maybe 2 beers.
Part of me misses corporate America. Why the fuck is that? I guess I miss the empowerment that it can give you. Especially in a company that tried hard to make you believe you have a modicum of power. Weird. Sometimes these middle-sized companies just are not the right size. Almost enough work to warrant more people, but too many people for anything but the busiest of times. But we could be much busier at the drop of a hat. But we would need more people. Very strange. Penny lane. Perhaps I am settling into being responsible for something sizable again. This job of ours is a little over $1.2 million for us. And it's basically my ass on the line if it gets off track. And all the other trades on-site are depending on us and building their schedule around our completion. Huh. It feels good.
OK. I have to go drink beer and figure out how I get my personal life into such shit. The double-ex is coming over (the one I moved here with) in an hour or so. We haven't seen each other in over 2 months, because she has been too busy for me, now that she has a new lover. But suddenly, she has time? She called me Sat, Sun and Mon night. Hmm....it gets worse. The parents are also on their way in about an hour to revel in the glee of finalizing a deal to buy property and a home here in the state. Then they fly away tomorrow, back to the East Coast. So, off I go to dull the pain. I'm only smiling on the outside. Inside? Well, you never really wanted to be in my head, but now is REALLY not the right time.
-Rich
"Come in from the cold for a while.
Everything will be alright.
Come in from the noise for a time.
Everything will be alright.
Everything will be alright.
For now, goodbye.
Friend, goodbye."
Not sure if I feel that way, but I know I have. On both sides. But I cherish that song. What a tender one and a half minute jam. A free beer to anyone (of legal drinking age) that can tell me where it's from. It's a hard one. It's not even listed on the song list. It's one of those end-of-recording bonuses. Maybe 2 beers.
Part of me misses corporate America. Why the fuck is that? I guess I miss the empowerment that it can give you. Especially in a company that tried hard to make you believe you have a modicum of power. Weird. Sometimes these middle-sized companies just are not the right size. Almost enough work to warrant more people, but too many people for anything but the busiest of times. But we could be much busier at the drop of a hat. But we would need more people. Very strange. Penny lane. Perhaps I am settling into being responsible for something sizable again. This job of ours is a little over $1.2 million for us. And it's basically my ass on the line if it gets off track. And all the other trades on-site are depending on us and building their schedule around our completion. Huh. It feels good.
OK. I have to go drink beer and figure out how I get my personal life into such shit. The double-ex is coming over (the one I moved here with) in an hour or so. We haven't seen each other in over 2 months, because she has been too busy for me, now that she has a new lover. But suddenly, she has time? She called me Sat, Sun and Mon night. Hmm....it gets worse. The parents are also on their way in about an hour to revel in the glee of finalizing a deal to buy property and a home here in the state. Then they fly away tomorrow, back to the East Coast. So, off I go to dull the pain. I'm only smiling on the outside. Inside? Well, you never really wanted to be in my head, but now is REALLY not the right time.
-Rich
posted by Rich at 11/09/2005 06:31:00 PM
4 Comments:
So what you are saying is that you are one of those people who has to stay friends with your ex's? That a city of people flow out of you? Really its ok to say "hey now listen, you have completely obliterated my heart, shaken my soul to a point where it feels like I have kidney stones (and if you have ever had them you WILL know the sort of pain I am talking about) and to be around you drives me completely insane." Trust me that go away come closer bull shit does feel good and the people that do that sort of shit ought to be smacked around with jumper cables. The more (Oh god Ive been reading again...) you let people continue to hurt you and drive you insane the more a little bit of you is torn apart. Yes I know you love her. Yes I know you think that life is going to be shit without her. But really, everytime you get past another break up it adds to the list of things you will put up with and the things you can live without. A person without lack of human emotional respect is something you want or need? Yes I know I have only read your side. Yes I know there are always more sides to the story. (God I love that Sag in me..) But the things you have written are how you feel. She drives you insane but you cant stop thinking about her..yep been there..
And I thought my Fugazi song was easy...
DMB
Jerk. Get out of my head. Seriously...I like my life without her. It's the weird, I dunno....the part of me that feels the need to be needed? It's been so long since we were friends. I miss it. But I don't want her back in the way we once were. I actually amd a little scared for her new beau. But, she has enough horror to share. I need not be the sole recipient.
-Rich
uhh yea I feel the same way about my ex too.. God forbid something go wrong in his life and his "new little Wifey" cant fix it. Take this little story to heart...
He came home from Iraq with the camera I helped him purchase. Professional camera the whole nine yard. OH GOD SOMETHING IS ON THE INSIDE LENSE! (It was a cannon rebel digital) I told him to leave it with me and I would get it fixed after freaking out. I took it to a guy that has worked on my familys cameras for years. Took him all of about 4 seconds to get it off...
No words of thanks just him relieved. That was ok.
Now he has a wife who was driving home from San Diego to San Jose. Down I-5. Where fires in California happen. She pulls over to the side of the road because she didnt know what to do...Ohhhh maybe get the hell out of there? 2 helpless people in a relationship is just doomed. And your ex will soon know what it is like now thats she "in" with her new one and he will know what the hell he got himself into. Maybe it wont be now maybe it wont be for a year but something is going to happen and neither of them will know what to do. If you wanna (and i know you dont) wait and see what happens when it does it will be a long road.
Has she ever dated anyone in the military before? Thats why I moved here. Theres no military (Sans recruiters) here. Ive done my civic duty to this country and Im done.....
hey nice word verification
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