So this is Christmas? I am sitting here, completely alone. And I am left to wonder if this is really OK. OK like I told myself it would be. Listening to crap I hate but can't not listen to. Avril. John Mayer. All these idiots making me feel lonely. Alone I can handle. But lonely makes my thighs wet. Not like that....wet from where the tears decide to drop off my jawline.

And I spent Christmas Eve with the most unlikely of people. A friend online that I haven't spoken to in years. But who was a friend in real life. And as Eve turns into Christmas, she is the closest person I have. There are some times when friends blow your mind. That is this night. What posessed me to IM her when I did? And what held me back from doing so so much sooner? Some weird kind of fate. Thanks for that.

Hey...that's all I really have to say without trying to address any one person. This is here for me. the second I realize I am trying to talk to any other person, I promised I would stop. So that's it. Night to all of my friends. I love you both!