OK. This is the last message even mentioning "her". I am done again. Or still. But this time, for real. I read something I clearly shouldn't have. Naughty boy reading things left out on the chair in the living room! But it was there, and I had to! So I did. I can't stand her unfaithfulness. It's horrid. I lied about one little thing that actually had NOTHING to do with US. She has lied from the get-go. And I am not to be bothered with this. She calls me Holier-than-thou. Well, with friends like her, it's hard not to be! I am seeing a shrink, and have always confessed to horrifically low self-esteem. Kind of hard to be Holier than anything if you think everything is better than you. So I don't get it again. But this is it. If anyone wants to hear anything, I will talk. But it is high time I put it behind me.

Someone here told me it sounds like there are still sparks. There are. You are so right, Kissudog. So right. There are a lot of sparks still. The only thing she felt when we broke up (and I know this for a fact) is that she is relieved she would not be getting engaged soon. THAT'S ALL!!!!! Nothing after 2 years. And who is the fake?

OK, done. No more. I promise. And I am now good for all of my words.

I must go pack for the trip tomorrow AM. I will be here all night, so if you feel like it....comment or email me or IM me at (gasp!!!....am I really doing this? ) "TheDogstarman" . Looking forward to everyone's life. And mine!